For those of you who have read my sporadic blogs, you know that I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis a while back. In the beginning of February 2012, I will have gone relapse free for 2 years! Which is excellent!
My m.s doctor recommended that I should start on a drug called Copaxane to help slow down the progression of my m.s. Now this is a wonderful option, however, it involves the injection of needles everyday! If you know me, I HATE NEEDLES. They terrify me and I have had terrible experiences with them. Not only that, Copaxone is known for stinging during injection and 10-15 min after the injection. Every day the needle has to be injected into a different area, because a skin condition can develop where the fat is killed off and an indent starts to occur.
I know I am just ranting, and I dont want anyone to feel pity for me. My main purpose is to develop an awareness for this terrible disease. I think having an autoimmune disease is sad. What would make my body want to attack itself? I want people to understand this way of life.
I think I am most scared for the future. They say if a person doesnt take treatments for the RRMS (relapsing- remitting multiple sclerosis) then there is a 50% chance that by the age of 30 a person will need an aid to walk around. It terrifies me. I want to be able to run around the park with my kids. I wanna cook and clean and be able to use both my arms.
It is the little things we take for granted. What I wouldnt give to have a day of being healthy again; a day when I actually feel rested, and right. Its really hard for me to just rest. To say no to life's hectic schedual.
I have to give props to my now husband Derek! He is the biggest helper a girl could ever ask for in a husband. He holds me when I cry, and he always seems to find a way to lighten my spirit when everything feels hopeless. He brings me back to the importance of prayer. He is an incredible man. Thanks Derek. I probably need to tell you that more often. I appreciate you, more than you will ever know.
God is good. Even through all of this. I got to walk down the aisle on my wedding day! What a blessing that was! SO as I start this new life of taking needles and changing my routine, I want to ask you to pray for me, pray that I will have the strength that comes from God, to overcome the challenges ahead!
God bless you!
Megan Enns
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