For those of you who have read my sporadic blogs, you know that I was diagnosed with multiple sclerosis a while back. In the beginning of February 2012, I will have gone relapse free for 2 years! Which is excellent!
My m.s doctor recommended that I should start on a drug called Copaxane to help slow down the progression of my m.s. Now this is a wonderful option, however, it involves the injection of needles everyday! If you know me, I HATE NEEDLES. They terrify me and I have had terrible experiences with them. Not only that, Copaxone is known for stinging during injection and 10-15 min after the injection. Every day the needle has to be injected into a different area, because a skin condition can develop where the fat is killed off and an indent starts to occur.
I know I am just ranting, and I dont want anyone to feel pity for me. My main purpose is to develop an awareness for this terrible disease. I think having an autoimmune disease is sad. What would make my body want to attack itself? I want people to understand this way of life.
I think I am most scared for the future. They say if a person doesnt take treatments for the RRMS (relapsing- remitting multiple sclerosis) then there is a 50% chance that by the age of 30 a person will need an aid to walk around. It terrifies me. I want to be able to run around the park with my kids. I wanna cook and clean and be able to use both my arms.
It is the little things we take for granted. What I wouldnt give to have a day of being healthy again; a day when I actually feel rested, and right. Its really hard for me to just rest. To say no to life's hectic schedual.
I have to give props to my now husband Derek! He is the biggest helper a girl could ever ask for in a husband. He holds me when I cry, and he always seems to find a way to lighten my spirit when everything feels hopeless. He brings me back to the importance of prayer. He is an incredible man. Thanks Derek. I probably need to tell you that more often. I appreciate you, more than you will ever know.
God is good. Even through all of this. I got to walk down the aisle on my wedding day! What a blessing that was! SO as I start this new life of taking needles and changing my routine, I want to ask you to pray for me, pray that I will have the strength that comes from God, to overcome the challenges ahead!
God bless you!
Megan Enns
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Tuesday, February 8, 2011
This is how I feel...
Well a lot has changed since my last blog. I got engaged to the love of my life, I'm leaving to Ireland in a couple days with my future mother-in-law, and I have been searching for a job!
One thing I have noticed since I've been engaged is that everyone seems to look down on people who get married when they are so young. Things such as, how will you make enough, or you don't want to be tied down so early in life, and do you think you are mature enough? It's made me realize something very sad, our culture has become obsessed with money. If you don't make tons of money your marriage is practically doomed to fail. Now I realize that money is pretty much essential to live in today's culture, I'm not completely oblivious! But I do not think that it should be the reason to wait, especially knowing now that I have found the one. We will have enough for all we need, that's a blessing compared to people who have nothing. It doesn't matter what age you are. I have known people who have lots of money and have never found happiness, look at Tiger Woods, no amount of money could have salvaged his marriage, money is what helped contribute to his problems.
To address the second concern about not wanting to be tied down, who said I didn't want to be tied down? I want to share my life with a man who challenges me and makes me want to be a better person, a man who leads me to God and shows me what it means to treat a lady the right way.
Last one, when is a person ever done maturing? We learn through life's struggles, I know. I've been through a lot this past year with my health.
A book that has really been helping me is called "66 Love Letters" by Dr. Larry Crabb. He talks about how all of our lives are little stories within the bigger story. That yes we make a difference but in the end it isn't all about us. How humbling. All this time I have been begging God to heal me and throwing threats at Him if he didn't. But I have this disease for a reason. And if he doesn't heal me Ill just have to suck it up and wait for the day when I wont need this earthly body, but instead have a rockin body up in heaven. One that wont fail. So now that I am getting over myself and my problems, it has opened up a lot of doors for me to love others. To let go of my pride cause in the end its just not worth it. People get hurt when I decide my pride is more important than salvaging a relationship. Trust me I am FAR from being an expert, this is just something I have realized, something I wish I did a long time ago! God can fix any relationship, heal any hurt, so I know that in my marriage I will try as hard as I can to make God first, so that when the storms come, Derek and I will have a sturdy foundation.
To God be the glory forever and ever.
Megan
One thing I have noticed since I've been engaged is that everyone seems to look down on people who get married when they are so young. Things such as, how will you make enough, or you don't want to be tied down so early in life, and do you think you are mature enough? It's made me realize something very sad, our culture has become obsessed with money. If you don't make tons of money your marriage is practically doomed to fail. Now I realize that money is pretty much essential to live in today's culture, I'm not completely oblivious! But I do not think that it should be the reason to wait, especially knowing now that I have found the one. We will have enough for all we need, that's a blessing compared to people who have nothing. It doesn't matter what age you are. I have known people who have lots of money and have never found happiness, look at Tiger Woods, no amount of money could have salvaged his marriage, money is what helped contribute to his problems.
To address the second concern about not wanting to be tied down, who said I didn't want to be tied down? I want to share my life with a man who challenges me and makes me want to be a better person, a man who leads me to God and shows me what it means to treat a lady the right way.
Last one, when is a person ever done maturing? We learn through life's struggles, I know. I've been through a lot this past year with my health.
A book that has really been helping me is called "66 Love Letters" by Dr. Larry Crabb. He talks about how all of our lives are little stories within the bigger story. That yes we make a difference but in the end it isn't all about us. How humbling. All this time I have been begging God to heal me and throwing threats at Him if he didn't. But I have this disease for a reason. And if he doesn't heal me Ill just have to suck it up and wait for the day when I wont need this earthly body, but instead have a rockin body up in heaven. One that wont fail. So now that I am getting over myself and my problems, it has opened up a lot of doors for me to love others. To let go of my pride cause in the end its just not worth it. People get hurt when I decide my pride is more important than salvaging a relationship. Trust me I am FAR from being an expert, this is just something I have realized, something I wish I did a long time ago! God can fix any relationship, heal any hurt, so I know that in my marriage I will try as hard as I can to make God first, so that when the storms come, Derek and I will have a sturdy foundation.
To God be the glory forever and ever.
Megan
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